Yeah!!! This blog is to express my feelings; where I can vent my frustration, share my sorrow & happiness… So, don’t mind if my entry is like super duper long.

*WARNING: This context may contain harsh words which I really hope would not offend anyone’s feeling. On the other hand, try to ponder about this entry and reflect on it. Please, don’t hate me! If you have any comment or queries, please do tag…

Since the start of poly’s life, I have been quite stressed. Yup, you might think that RP’s life is so relaxing since there is no homework and exams. But, as usual, I can get quite pressurized with small problems. The problem lies here: all the “kids” in my class are like SUPER BRAINIAC than I am. Mogana did try to assure me that all are the same and she said that I have the best “O” level aggregate among the rest in my class. Duh… Who really cares about me getting 15 score? It’s a different story! Now, in poly, all are chasing for an “A” grade. Yup, I desperately need that grade to obtain a degree. Ok, tat’s too early to say… Haha… Anyway, I can already feel the weight of the pressure. One of my friends kept asking me what my grade is. WTF! She would boast if she gets an “A” and I knew that she looks on me down.

Sometimes, friends can be too irritating. Sometimes, they try to crack joke with you without knowing whether it will affect your feelings or not. I’m talking about you, Warren! Sorry bro… U can be nice at times but you should have taken note of girls’ feelings especially me! Yes, I am EMO! EMOTIONAL! Remember, in the msn, you said that I surely get a “D” since I am too quiet and didn’t voice out any opinions…? U even said that you will rate me as “strongly disagree” in the peer-evaluation. And from that moment, I didn’t talk to you (yeah, the next day we do talk)… Did you know that I am crying in my heart? Did you know that you hurt my heart deeply? Did you know that I nearly lost my self-confidence?

EVERYONE thinks that of me! They think I’m an introvert and a quiet girl who doesn’t dare to fight back! Hey, I can get violent! Better watch what you said! When I’m quiet, it doesn’t mean that I’m not thinking of the problem statement, ok! I do think but I have this fear that you guyz disagree with my idea…

Accept me for who I am.

Spiritless Soul – Hidsam